Before I talk about Belly

Y_U_NO KNOW BELLEEENOTBELL!?

Can I scream before I continue this? Never expected that 2012 would arrived that fast, and in just a blink of eye, I'm turning twenty soon enough to reach the next stage in life. Well, everyone said they would face the mid-twenties' crisis when you entered adulthood, I barely imagine myself in such condition that I wouldve to bear all the responsibilities my 'rents are facing, &everyone in the world are putting up with. *facepalms


Totally surprising if one day Ive my own kids, starting my own family, and reading back this post how paranoid I was back when I was younger; thinking and considering my path in the future. Indefinite emotional struggles I had back when I was a teen, couldn't compared to the financial burden I'm gonna face in few years time, such temperamental thoughts in my head. Everyone did a reflection of what theyve gone through back in 2011, but I'm such a lazy laid back person, I prefer letting things take in toll, leads me to the next milestone.
Talking about reflections, I had mine written few nights before 2011 ends, now that I wonder where did it flew, perhaps to somewhere over the rainbow, that others would have treasure my piece of thought better than anyone else do.


2011 had been a pretty tough year for most of my circle of friends, we shared, we learnt, we teared, we broke our hearts, we picked 'em up, we outgrow our thoughts, we learn to see things, putting ourselves in other people's shoes, we rarely letting our guards down, and had the lowest point in life, when being let down by the closest ones around you is fairly a norm in my dictionary. Yet to express my own thoughts, I skimmed through my previous posts few years ago, I'm nowhere close to where I was before, but by all odds, a better person in my own preference. I quit putting myself to care for every single details, quit giving in to people that least deserve 'em, &quit crying myself to bed every night for feeling unappreciated. &that's all I need to manage my emotions &continue walking to another milestone to where I belong.


Christmas's Eve and NYE were one of the good parties Id attended throughout the year, despite the part getting wasted and KO on the bed till the next morning. And early this year, my Belleeenotbell turned TWENTY this year. This means that I would have more upcoming parties to go because I'll be celebrating Piggiepeggie's birthday soon as well. All the babies are burning a hole in my wallet but I'm glad that we are still back in Malaysia because I am berry sad that the closest friends in my small circle are leaving soon after February. I got to go repay some sleep debts!


*off topic but will be continued*

Christmas's eve with Piggypeggie

The Peejay's gang during NYE

Dory's signature pose

Belleeenotbell's 20th birthday in Decanter, PJ.

Sportsville, Jellyjasmine and Piggypeggie.

Michelle's in the house.

I'm gonna write...
Gonna start writing...

*after 2 hours of procrastination, shower and dinner*

I'm still clueless what to write and how to start this off.
Facepalms and bang myhead softly on the wall.


It's mid of December, another 18 days more to go before 2011 ends and we shall all party like rockstar to welcome the beginning of the new year, 2012. But who knows how great would it turns out to be and definitely who could predict whether is 2012 gonna be better than this year. It is too early to be said when I can't even define whatve I gone through this year. Like Ive never really live up to myself throughout the year. Lessons learnt, mistakes made, decision struggles, &insignificant friends. One fine day, some random stranger actually walked up to my table and randomly asked if I'm Shushasha that blogs and pretty active in Twitter.


My first thought in head was I couldn't care less because I was busy preparing for my paperworks, &was struggling to finish up my lunch at the same time, but I nearly dropped my jaw when he said he's been reading and following my blog since I started blogging in my previous website. It was just really nice and sweet of him that he came up to me and said hi. I guess that really made my day, when that day also turned out to be one of my biggest lesson of life; never drive in rage.


There's this one question I always pop to people that I just met; What would do you when your closest friend of all is going to leave, for their own personal reasons/study purpose? And most of the time, I would get the answer I wanna hear from them. Some would tearup, some said they will be very happy for them, &perhaps a few would be pretty pissed &still wish them Bon Voyage pleasantly though. Looking back to those days I shared with all my close friends, acquaintances, random people that I spoke to &those that successfully made to the exit in my life, I'm glad everything that happens, happened for really appropriate reasons &I managed to move on to the next chapter in life. They said, every mistake made is another lesson learnt with a price to pay. From the bottom of my heart, I still hold on to the saying, without making mistake, I wouldn't learn, &it just wouldn't be me, today. So eventually, when you do make any mistakes in your life, till the day you're still breathing right now at this moment, don't feel bad because it happened but be glad it happened and you know that you're still breathing, better &stronger than before.

I just gotta learn this the hard way, &perhaps took a longer route, slower pace. But I'll never regret choosing this path.

Okayh, moving on to Michelle's farewell party before she's leaving to Canada &we had an awesome session, pigged out in The Social, Bangsar. I thought we were going to be late for the dinner &they would cancelled my reservation, but thank goodness to my awesome driving skills, it was raining &yet we made it there right in time before the clock strikes eight! The food is reasonably cheap &it feels like home, really comfortable in our own space, I love their ambiance and lighting, guess what? They even provide pool tables!

Fong's carbonara and it tastes really good (Y)

Aryl's Arrabiata, too spicy for my liking though.

Steak sandwich and the portion is pretty huge for Ann.

Social mezze plate; mutton, lamb grills &I love their kebab! 

Lasagna beef and chicken

ahmoiku, leaving on 19th!

Pegbabey

shot #1

Mr Muscular

Bryan and Fong

Wei Ann, came back from Perth; she drove to the dinner miraculously, Sherilyn &Jingli 

The toast, cherry poppin' in a box *insidejoke*

bellenotbell &ahmoiku

Canadian vs Australian

Group picture

After the dinner, we chilled a while inside my car before heading over to Mist and meetup w/ Fong Number 2 from my college for a Korean farewell and bumped into a few of my friends here and there. KO-ed at 5 in the morning, before mom decided to question me anything about the dinner, I headed out again before she could bombard me with her lectures. Last but not least, I'm gonna end this post with a flattering picture of us. 

Yours truly, Fong &ahmoiku

next post coming up, Tiesto fever!

Emotional tantrums

Its only 5.22 in the afternoon but my body clock is already ticking to bed. They are secretly signalling to brain asking my body to shut down asap and flipping get my ass to bed for some really good rest. This November is coming to an end again, once again I would said. Those that knows me really well, and God knows what He had put me through this year, it was really messed up but I would said, it's a pretty good exposure to what I had got through, and put me to a learning experience, that a price is infinity. As much as I would like to write, I've always  find my way to procrastination, a pretty valid reason to push all my responsibilities to other factors in life, &most of time,

 I wouldve said, "NO TIME LARH BOSS." 

Who said it's easy to lead a happy life without worries of munneh? I bet you have not even try earning your own penny, dude. I'm not about to brag about how my earnings but at least, knowing the fact that munneh doesn't grow on trees are readily good enough to shove it to your face. Recalling those moments that I had in this year, I was supposed to blog in a week time after October 17th &guess what? Something somehow sometimes just blow my minds off for the past one month, got carried away by those thoughts and now I'm back here on my feet, standing strong despite those emotional tantrums that I had, yes tantrums I called it.


For not endowed reason, I've bugged Pegbabey and Bellenotbell for almost a month because of the dwelling and bounding stage, perhaps its just in need of a normal mental clarity check. They always tell me it's easy to move on when you least realized and pour your attention into someone, it's true. However, it's also easily said than done. Aha, but certainly it'll all boils to the a point when enough means enough, till the day you'll finally realized that everything that you were up to previously is just insanely dumb, well it's always quoted love is blind; the person in love, LAGI BLIND.


Wishing for things that I could achieve in the new year's resolutions, I'd love to reach out for certain goals in life with my own abilities, of course maybe some preaching from my parents and friends, but nevertheless, I really wanna strive for my own goals (: There's this little feelings of appreciation injected into my senses &that is just gonna motivates me to work things better. Okay, time to get some sleep before heading out again tonight.

Recap of the month(s)

Karyee and yourstruly in Aryl's open house

Shot #2

The boys; Vincent, Ravin, Fong &Jingli

My new classmates, Mandapanda and Ninjayasmin

WHERE I CALL IT MY SECOND HOME NOW (Y)

Sister's birthday and my bangs 

IMMA TRANSFORM MYSELF INTO ....

PO-POKKER FACE (Lady Gaga phailed)

BUT Paulalicious has sexy thick red lips now. 

Last picture of the day, Subang road trip w/ the bunch. 

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In loving memory of Grandpa Chang (1931 - 2011), 

Despite that we don't live under one roof, 

we may have the least conversations among all the siblings 

and cousins, regardless how often you may have notice me in our family gatherings, 

the bonding moments that we probably started to have, were reduced in such a vast manner, 

that lead to such despair and regrets that one would have for that one day you'll be gone, forever. 

Yeye, you'll always and forever be my dearest, 

RIP. ♥